I have said from the beginning that pumping just works for us. It never seemed like that much of a nuisance, until now. Since I went back to work, I am not responding to the pump as well as I used to. Previously, I would hook myself up and then just tune out for about 20 minutes. I now have to continuously do compressions and it takes me more like 30 minutes. This has become problematic because I don't have 30 minute + breaks at work to pump. I do the best I can, but sometimes that means pumping almost half of what I usually do.
Luckily, I have been able to maintain my supply, trying my hardest to get in good sessions while I am at home. However, my late morning pump session on my days off are also getting more difficult. Hannah seems to want my attention most at this time. I usually put her in the Jumperoo and sit in front of it so I can talk to her, but she usually won't last the 30 minutes it takes me. She doesn't understand why I can't hold her or pick her up. It breaks my heart, so I just stop early to comfort and play with my baby.
I don't have any intention of stopping, I am determined to get her to a year on breastmilk. Hopefully my supply will keep up so my freezer stash will get me there without me having to actually pump for a year. I really can't imagine doing this for 8 more months. So for now, I take it one day at a time...
You're doing a great job! Something that I have heard that can help at work is bringing an article of your baby's clothing to smell. It's challenging pumping and working!! Take your advice, just take one day at a time. You're doing great! I didn't make it to a year. I stopped around 5 months after being pretty devastated by mastitis and general frustration with pumping. I still feel sorrowful when I think about giving up on pumping and trying to breastfeed. My daughter is thriving on formula is a healthy, happy 6 month old, so I try not to feel too guilty.
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